Lyrics Failures, Fears and Forgiveness

In this darkness I'm confined
Bound by chains that I can't unwind
Lost in shadows I can't deny
A prisoner of my own mind

I am a soldier, that's what I told ya
I don't give up even though it's a closure
Against them all, time for exposure
Who's left with me when the fighting is over
I got this weight upon my chest
All these demons infest me
I'm still making a mess
Always feel like they test me
Just let me get happy
I'm just trying to protect me
Shattered dreams and broken seams
It almost feels like it gets me
The fear inside my mind
Always like if it traps me
These chains won't unwind
No one behind me, to back me

I can't move and I cannot hide and I
Want to break free
I feel the fear that is deep deep inside my mind and I
Don't wanna leave
Yeah it really needs to end
And I cannot comprehend when you tell me that you won't be there
Yeah I'm all alone and
I am on my own

It's been holding me back for all these years
Changing the atmosphere and fueling my fears
I cannot breathe I'm suffocating in this bind
It's like a part of me that is deeply entwined
Deeply entwined

I feel the fear that is deep inside
Deep inside
Deep inside

I can't move and I cannot hide and I
Want to break free
I feel the fear that is deep deep inside my mind and I
Don't wanna leave
Yeah it really needs to end
And I cannot comprehend when you tell me that you won't be there
Yeah I'm all alone and
I am on my own

In this battlefield of my emotions
I'll find a way to break these notions
I'll tear down the walls that hold me tight
Emerge from the darkness into the light

I will break down these walls
Break down these walls
Break down these walls

I feel the fear that is deep inside
Deep inside
Deep inside
I feel the fear that is deep inside
Deep inside
Deep inside

Who the hell did I become?
Look at me!
Look at me!

I can not recognize myself
My body and my soul
Have become so numb
Why am I doing this to everyone?
I feel a force from deep within
Its like constant punches to my chin

Falling through the darkened days
waiting for the dawn
If I end up on the ground
then will I be gone

Who is this monster in the mirror?
Is it me or is it someone else?
So how did it come to be?
And why is it killing me?
Will it lead me to my final path?
Look at me!

I never checked on my heart
Is it even pumping blood?
I’m wondering why I’m so cold
But it wasn't only my fault
I’m just dealing with my life
No control how deep I dive
Think I lost myself inside
No control of the device

Who is this monster in the mirror?
Is it me or is it someone else?
So how did it come to be?
And why is it killing me?
Will it lead me to my final path?
Who is this monster in the mirror
Is it me or is it someone else?
So how did it come to be?
(how did it come to be)
And why is it killing me?
(tell me why)
What will I become?
What will I become?

Falling through the darkened days
waiting for the dawn
If I end up on the ground
then will I be gone
Radiating, eradicating
Reverence of security

Who is this monster in the mirror?
Is it me or is it someone else?
So how did it come to be?
And why is it killing me?
Will it lead me to my final path?
Who is this monster in the mirror
Is it me or is it someone else?
So how did it come to be?
(how did it come to be)
And why is it killing me?
(tell me why)

What will I become?

Radiating, eradicating
Reverence of security
Security
Yeah

Everytime you think of me
I just want you
to See me Happy

I Always wanted to be more
As i was getting less
My Brother Always struggled
but i never understood,
what it means to be depressed
Now i see things different,
But god its not a bless
Cause now we're almost in our thirtys
And yet we didnt had the Chance
I dont talk about my mother
And how her Plans turned in a mess
Life has not been easy
But its not over yet

And I think that its time for turning Tables
to clean this mess
I never been enough for
been enough for you

Everywhere I go im gonna be
I'll be right there, right what you need
To take good care of you
and be everything for you
I gotta be strong, i gotta
i gotta carry on
Everytime you think of me
I just want you to See me
Happy

I don't even know who I am anymore
I've let all these bad things change me
Turn me into someone I don't recognize
And I've realized, everything is all my fault
I've gotta make it right
I took the road less traveled
It's rougher than I thought it'd be
I know nothing's easy
But I'm so sick of never being enough for you lately

And I think that its time for turning Tables
to clean this mess
I never been enough for
been enough for you

Everywhere I go im gonna be
I'll be right there, right what you need
To take good care of you
and be everything for you
i gotta
I gotta be strong, i gotta
i gotta carry on
Everytime you think of me
I just want you
to See me Happy

Just listen, hold on
Don't leave me here in the dark
Soft whispers of loss
Don't leave me here with my thoughts

Just listen, hold on
Don't leave me here in the dark
Soft whispers of loss
Don't leave me here with my thoughts
Am I enough now
Am I enough now
Am I enough now
Am I enough?

Am I enough?
Enough for you now?

Where are my heroes?
They're not wearing capes no more
Everything's changing
I can't accept what was there no more
I'm kinda angry and I kind of feel sad
I feel like missing something
that I can't have

And now I have these words
But I don't know how to say them
I miss you so much
Every time it's raining
We couldn't keep in touch
But I don't start complaining
I just wanted you to know
Thanks for all you gave me

Somehow you don't see me
The man that I've become
I still think you want me to Go on
being what you want
I'm writing this for you
'Cause lately, things are changing
And now I understood
What families are made of

Thinking about my past
What I could do better
I felt so lost
Felt like nothing matters
like nothing matters

Somehow you don't see me
The man that I've become
I still think you want me to Go on
being what you want
I'm writing this for you
'Cause lately, things are changing
And now I understood
What families are made of

Where are my heroes?
They're not wearing capes no more
Everything's changing
I can't accept what was there no more
there no more

I'm kind of angry, and I'm kind of feeling sad
I'm missing something that I can't have
And now I have these words
I don't know how to say them
My vision's blurred
My, My vision's blurry
And I'm
I'm still hurt

I remember I was young, I was so innocent
Dreaming of my life, what It could be, I played pretend
Suddenly all i heard was dissonant
This was the start of my descent

Misfortune defining my whole life
Where is the sense in all of this
Reaper take my sacrifice

Am I fading now, away
Or am I doomed and forced to stay
Always a stranger to this world
I wanna leave cause I’m always torn apart
Am I leaving now, decay
I’ll be gone by the morning rays
I keep my eyes wide shut and sway
Cause I am fading now, away

The past few months have been even worse
Everything’s against me in the whole universe
The path I follow is burning in destruction
Broken bones caused a world of corruption

Misfortune defining my whole life
Where is the sense in all of this
Reaper take me now

Am I fading now, away
Or am I doomed and forced to stay
Always a stranger to this world
I wanna leave cause I’m always torn apart
Am I leaving now, decay
I’ll be gone by the morning rays
I keep my eyes wide shut and sway
Cause I am fading now, away

Now im gonna withdraw from my life
Will i go to hell or to paradise?
Or will i fuck up even that, like everything else, so that I survive?
Now im gonna withdraw from my life
Will i go to hell or to paradise?
Or will i fuck up even that, like everything else, so that I survive?

Yeah

I’ll fuck it up
I’m fading away
I keep my eyes shut and sway
Until I’m nothing more than a memory
Am I doomed and forced to stay
I am fading now, away

Beneath the weight of broken dreams

I fight against the silent screams

A battle waged inside my soul

As darkness seeks to take control

Through raging storms and endless nights

I'll find the strength to face the fight

From deep within, a fire burns

Led to a road where I cant return

And everywhere I go

can't seem to find my missing piece

and everytime I cry

I try to find the light

In shadows deep where darkness dwells

a weary heart where hope compells

the scars run deep they tell my tell

in a world so cold where hearts cant feel

I'm only trying to survive

Barely breathing and barely alive

I seek for a place to hang my noose

Its holding me tighter and not getting loose

Its not getting loose

When will all of this finally end

A life that fades, that I can not mend

In shadows deep where darkness dwells

a weary heart where hope compells

the scars run deep they tell my tell

in a world so cold where hearts cant feel

A life that ends

through shattered memories

an echo of my peace

i try to find my voice

in the fragments of my choice

In shadows deep where darkness dwells

a weary heart where hope compells

the scars run deep they tell my tell

in a world so cold where hearts cant feel

through shattered memories

an echo of my peace

i try to find my voice

in the fragments of my choice

And i keep you in my memories

Where you sit right next to me

Talkin bout the Persons

We used to be

Sometimes i feel scared

And i feel so lonely

All the thoughts we shared

I guess you really know me

I don't wanna be

Anywhere else

Hmhm

But when i wake up tomorrow

I know you're not next to me

Cause your heart has just been borrowed

And it dont belongs to me

And i feel this itch inside of me

It´s where my pain grows

I gotta leave you behind me

I gotta let you go

Do you really think

The time can heal my soul?

I don't think so

I need a little love

I need a helping Hand

I know i got in you

Someone to understand

What i've been

Going through

Hmhm

But when i wake up tomorrow

I know you're not next to me

Cause your heart has just been borrowed

And it dont belongs to me

And i feel this itch inside of me

It's where my pain grows

I gotta leave you behind me

I gotta let you go

Ohhh

Let you go

But when i wake up tomorrow

I know you're not next to me

Cause your heart has just been borrowed

And it dont belongs to me

And i feel this itch inside of me

It's where my pain grows

I gotta leave you behind me

I gotta let you go

Ohhh

Let you go

The shadows of doubt may try to bind,

But learning these lessons, I won't mind.

They carve my path,they make me strong,

Teaching me where I belong.

When I face my failures

I wont cower

I´ll rise again

and find new power

Moving forward,

I'll find my way,

Through darkest nights

and brightest days.

I’ve never felt alive

and all I found inside was agony

oh how can I survive

in a world that wasn’t built for me?

I’ve never felt so torn apart,

it’s getting hard to breathe

I feel the urge to burn my heart

in a world that wasn’t built for me

to survive

a million times

i fell from the clouds again

never saw the signs

pointing towards my descent

for days and nights

been wandering through my empty mind

there’s no more light

caught up in an endless fight

I’ve been battling

with a lifeless ghost

unravelling

what I crave the most

a million times

i fell from the clouds again

never saw the signs

pointing towards my descent

I’ve never felt alive

and all I found inside was agony

oh how can I survive

in a world that wasn’t built for me?

I’ve never felt so torn apart,

it’s getting hard to breathe

I feel the urge to burn my heart

in a world that wasn’t built for me

to survive

Am I giving up?

I am giving up

cause I am not enough

for the world that was never built for me

She said she loves me

But I'm fucked up

Bad blood runs through my veins

Got a whole lotta bad luck

Sick brain

In my head, I'm a sad fuck

Sick brain

In my head, I'm a sad fuck

But you're still acting like you know me

Not a single thing

You will never own me

Talking 'bout these days

That was the old me

You can hate, ey

You will never know me

You were there

But you never really cared

You can tear me apart

Burn me from the inside

But I'll rise from the other side

You can break all my bones

But after all this, I know

You can't break me

You will never break me down

Break me down

Your voice is always on my mind

Forcing me to stay inside

When will I leave you behind

Your ghost is haunting me at night

But I don't care what you think of me

I got a knife in my back

And you let me bleed

Thank you for the honesty

But I don't give a fuck

What you say to me

You can tear me apart

Burn me from the inside

But I'll rise from the other side

You can break all my bones

But after all this, I know

You can't break me

You will never break me down

You

You can tear me apart

But you'll never reach my heart

Never reach my heart

You can hate me

You can break me down

But I'll get up again

I'm gonna get over it

You can tear me apart

Burn me from the inside

But I'll rise from the other side

You can break all my bones

But after all this, I know

You can't break me

You will never break me down

Your words are always on my mind

Forcing me to stay inside

When will I leave you behind

Your ghost is haunting me at night

Your words are always on my mind

Forcing me to stay inside

When will I leave you behind

Your ghost is haunting me at night

Your words are always on my mind

Forcing me to stay inside

When will I leave you behind

Your ghost is haunting me at night

Your words are always on my mind

Forcing me to stay inside

When will I leave you behind

Your ghost is haunting me at night

Oh I will be there

Back to you

All too soon

I've got anxieties inside of me

It's in my DNA

Caught a quarter-piece of Cali, I'm falling free

Went deeper every day

You keep calling me

I'm swiping all these messages away

Lost my faith

all these voices in my head

Won't go away

Don't know why it's frightening, could be exciting

Could be the worst fucking day of my life

Everyone's smiling, inside I'm crying

Trying to find any word to describe

What am I feeling, am I alright

Staring at the ceiling, like every night

It's me and my demons, speaking 'bout leaving

All of these fears inside my mind

I will carry on, home again

Back to you

Oh I will be there, back to you

All too soon

Meine Beine, sie brechen

So fängt es an, wenn die Tage sich rächen

Die Taten sich rächen, würd nicht damit rechnen

Mich wieder zu sehen, kannst mich vergessen, denn ich werde gehen, ich werde gehen

Du wirst mich vergessen, ich will einfach alles

Von mir auslöschen, will alles zerstören

Werd über mich richten

Will keinem gehören, ich werde alles vernichten

Schau in den Lauf, fühle mich taub

Vater, ich hab' meine Seele verkauft

Ich muss hier raus, will nur noch weg

Viel zu lange schon leb' ich im Dreck

Du weißt es doch auch, du hast es gesehen

Zu viele Steine in meinem Weg

Hab es gesehen

Hab es verflucht

In meinen Venen, in meinem Blut

Das ganze Gift, es tut mir nicht gut

Kann es nicht lassen, ich hab' es versucht

Fang an zu beten, lass es nicht zu

Zu viele Tränen, kalter Entzug

Erst ist ein Segen, dann ist ein Fluch

Renn' in den Regen, in den Monsun

Die Karten gelegt, die Straßen sind zu

Eiskaltes Blut

I will carry on, home again

(Die letzten Worte eines Totgesagten

Herr, warum willst du deinen Sohn bestrafen?)

Next to you

Oh I will be there, back to you

(Gott, ich fühle mich von dir verraten

Lass uns reden komm in meine Arme)

All too soon

Mich hält nichts mehr hier

Hab keine Zeit zu verlieren

Lauf zurück zu dir

Finde zu mir

Beneath the skin, a tempest cries

Melodies of fear, where the heart denies

But I'll rise

from the ashes of my despair

With a scream, I'll reclaim my air

reclaim my air